Thursday, December 21, 2006
We are both here right now,
yet you are not here.
I don't have to say
How much I yearn for you
Because these words
Are not enough to encapsulate
these unknown feelings
That flow in my blood
Will you stay with me
And not change?
Will we be together
till the end of time?
I really don't think
there's space for another one like you
My unintended.
We are both here right now,
but you are not here.
With me.
posted at [10:24 PM]
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Sundays... are best known for the relaxed manner that most people like best.
Relaxed... you know... Like, sitting around on the couch/ chair the whole day watching tv or surfing the net. Sleeping when you feel bored, eating when you feel bored. Or sitting at the toilet bowl for too long because you can afford to.
Well I hate that! Other than the toilet bowl part, but really it sucks. But hey I guess that is what most office workers get. Sitting on their backside for hours. Oh the inactivity is killing me by just thinking about it. Well I don't really have to think about it. I just did that today! I mean the sitting down.
I swear I can feel my behind growing bigger already.
Anyway, the one thing good about going to USA is that their hotels provide good bathing soap and shampoo! No kidding! My mother got lots of Neutrogena products from there. Haha. In fact I am a Neutrogena sponsored girl right now. I just bathed with all Neutrogena products from head to toe. It really smells good! :D
Its stupid you know. Today I am so bored I wished that I had stuff to study. So dumb. During the whole damn semester I never felt like that before.But then to think of it, studying sucks too. Cos you'll just be sitting down again. At least church goers get to go to church and walk about. Hmm even though most of the time they sit down too? Ok too much of sitting Singaporeans. We need to get about - M O V I N G.
And they should build indoor running track. With all the fake flora and fauna since they like man made things so much. Yeah yeah, solar energy too. All this in case it rains you know. Like today. It rained the whole bloody day! So amazing! So much water to rain.
And did u read Charlotte's Web? Well the movie is out. It's a good show. Don't miss it. :)
Well smell you later! hehe
posted at [10:57 PM]
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Fate.
This is fated.
We are fated.
By the hands of fate.
Is there such a thing?
IF there is such a thing as fate, and whichever religion you are from, it means that the guy up there has already written down things about you and me. And we are merely all playing out what HE has written out in his bed time story or His new hobby which has lasted more than a few thousand years for now. It's sickening don't you think? If someone up there has ALREADY chosen what we are going to do everyday, what good and lousy decisions we are going to make, isn't it so sad?
I watched The Truman Show recently. Truman is a guy how is on TV 24 hours a day. Except when he has sex (then everything gets blurred out), his life is captured "live" to a worldwide audience. And he dosen't know it. For 10,000 over days, which is close to 30 years, the TV channel boasted so proudly that they are bringing "The Truman Show" live. Everyone around the world sees him from a newborn, to his first step to the first baby tooth that dropped to him getting married. Everything. Everybody loves the show because Truman is real. He's a real human but he's locked up in this impressive and expansive studio with a whole big town and ocean around him. He is real, but everything around him is fake. HIS wife is a fake - an actress. HIS best friend since 7 years old is a fake. So is his neighbour, the passerby on the street, the newspaper vendor. They are all actors.
Everyone knows their role in this human created world. They all know who is Truman and that he cannot find out that he is "the star" of the show. A reality show, if you may, which is breaking all grounds of human rights, freedom of choice and expression and individuality and privacy. In The Truman Show, it breaks all of that.
Firstly you thank god that that's just a show. But a disturbing show at that. The world that his creator has created was so real. So faultless and impeccably planned out that it amazes you. At first you will be in awe of this creator but then you will get pissed with him. Who the hell is he to decide how Truman is to live his life?
To prevent Truman from living, oops I mean leaving, he made him afraid of the water. Most area of the gigantic studio is surrounded by water. He made it his fault of causing his dad's death which he will come to be haunted by in his adult years. That is like brainwashing. Instilling fear in someone.
So its disturbing to see this creator guy playing out The Truman Show as if he was playing chess. One wrong move and he is dead. He places people or obstructions at critical areas to prevent Truman from finding out what a joke he has been.
And what if we are like that too? We play The Sims and we enjoy controlling those people's lives. Some people may say The Sims is a girl's game, but even those so called guy's games also involve controlling life - you just kill people instead. Hey so let's face it. All of us like it if we have some control over certain things. What makes you think that the guy up there don't love it more than us? And when we are playing those stupid games, He is up there laughing at us.
Life is a great big question mark. We don't know what it has ahead of us. And for those people who are so certain that "I am going to be this and this. I am going to do THIS and that. I will become this and THAT.", you make me laugh. Even if we are really just merely chess pieces on our time on Earth, we shouldn't be that sad. Because it is always fun to know what He has chosen for us to do, to meet, to have. I guess it is how you make use of what he has decided for you to the fullest, how you fully appreciate the things you get and have now that will make life slightly better. At least we have a bigger world than Truman to explore.
Well I guess we have to thank him for giving us a big enough playground.
And it's true! The world IS stage and we are all merely actors.
posted at [5:27 PM]
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
If your inner mind is a sanctum, why do you need diaries or blogs?
Well... precisely so! It's not a sanctum. Because if you keep everything in your head, you will go ka put. But sometimes when you write it down in your personal diary other people may chance upon it and you can kiss your personal space good bye.
Anyway MY holiday has started. Everyone's holiday is different now. We start at different dates, end at different dates. Haha. Does that make you special now?
Well so far so good. Though i miss a lot of things. Like the track, the running, my parents, charlene and apple and evon. Catch up with u guys soon! :)
And by the way. IM LOVING 2007 already! (other than the fact that i missed my module declarations but fuck that) Firstly, its a new semester! I can make amends for this recent joke of a sem. Its shitty man. I dunno what the heck I was doing. But I wanna change. I wanna work harder for my next semester because I know I can do it. AND i know all those who started uni too can do it too. No more making a fool out of ourselves.
Secondly! MUSE IS COMING. hahahahhhaa. That is the greatest news of all actually. But you know... Studies always come first. blah blah blah. But MUSE IS COMING! hahahahaha. It's the next best thing to NIRVANA IS COMING!!! (but that won't happen anyway) tra la la. And yes I've got the MOST expensive ticket to offer (haha!) and Matthew Bellamy and gang will be right in front of my eyes. And their guitars and performance will knock my socks off. okok.. i know i need to calm down now. MUSE IS COMING! and they serve beer. hahahahaha. charlene quek!!! hahahaha. Just imagine "My plug in baby... crucifies all my enemies...lalalala!!!!!!!!!!!" Oh man. what a great start 2007 will be. :) I hope i dun screw up my next semester modules.
Well. Thirdly, Eric Clapton is coming and Im going for that too. that will be with my family. I think everyone should go bcos Eric our friend is such a great legend and he's also quite old. I dunno when he will be coming back and whether he can come back or not. He even said it himself! that he's not as fast as he was last time. Im talking abt his guitar skills. Cant wait to listen to "Wonderful tonight". "you look wonderful tonight... " yes yes yes :)
And there's you too. :)
posted at [11:43 PM]