How To Disappear Completely.
I wonder if I can disappear for a while. (Actually I know I can.)
You know, to just not be anyway, hp off, internet off, everything off and do whatever I want for a while. I cant stand uni! The work load doesnt end. Projects, tests, exams, presentations. I feel like just throwing everything down and do nothing - which is everything else other than studying or finding some fucking internet websites for info.
I think I have forgotten what it is to take it slow.
Do you still remember? :(
Today when I got home, my dad was like "Hey where u go? So long nv see u."
I think he felt what i felt. Missing him and my mother. sigh. Well they are going off on a cool holiday together. Happy for them. I dunno why, but I think Im going to miss them a lot!
Somemore today my mother made soup and called me ard 9pm to tell me that she left some soup for me to drink when i come home. Sigh. Im not gonna get that next week... :(
yeah i know.. big girl already. i should be able to take care of myself and my brother now. but parents are still parents. they're so important.
So... Anyway, like Muse's "Citizen Erased", maybe it's "Swee Erased". Sometimes not existing so much is good I think. But am I existing a lot? Not really. Maybe I should fall really sick and have a proper reason not to go anywhere.
My room's too messy to think right.
posted at [11:36 PM]
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