keeping alive
i hate bright white lights. like how they stare into your face. esp when u're trying to fall asleep (when u really should be studying) on your bed and the fucking white light just continues shining right through your closed eye lids. and when u're forced to open them at long last, the light has a jarring effect. let's just say it'll keep you wide eyed.
i cant slp tonight. it's 12.13pm. im supposed to be feeling sleepy. oh shit. i think my brain just happened to wash tt word away or sth. im quite unhappy with ch 5 today. they fucking cheated the viewers with their "Desperate Housewives Special" oh yeah. right. what special was that? that was just a freaking RE CAP. and hello. and i think mandy could have done a better recap than tt. argh. what's their fucking problem. after the show they still had the cheek to put "ONLY 4 MORE EPISODES BEFORE THE SHOW ENDS". Oh yeah. thanks. THEN WHY ARE U NOT PLAYING IT?! oh what? the final has to fall on some auspicious date? hey wanna check out an auspicious hour too? i think 3am will do fine in fact. and dun worry i think you'll get more viewers than a champion league match. ok forget it. im just ranting.
oh yeah. keeping alive now. i guess im keeping alive by fear. when u know u ought to be doing sth, but there's so many things to be done u dunno what to do! the worst thing is you know you shouldnt be here wasting your time. but nvm. you comfort yourself telling yourself that you're in a zombie mode now and you wouldnt feel bad abt this wasted time.
anyway daddy will be coming home soon. wednesday. the prodigy boy wonder will be home too. yeah everybody will be home. i miss my daddy. he's the guy who cracks us up without trying at all. he's so sweet and nice and (i miss his tummy) _______ insert any other nice synonyms. okok i also wanna look at what he got for me. lol.
ok im deviating from the real problem. you know like the coriolis force? when it deviates. at the northern hemisphere it will deviate right, and at the south, left. and when it becomes parallel to the isobars analogous to my sanity, everything will be alright.
just like the yellowcard song - "believe"
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong.
Believe.
but what if the faith runs dry? so u become wrinkled and dried while waiting for faith to get moving. like a dried up river bed? with cracks all over you. with cracks all over you.
the packet of oreo is staring at me from the dining table.
posted at [3:48 AM]
fi-ne
