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today i felt the pain of attachment.
it's not easy to let go. to break out of ur usual routine.
why is it tt hard to break free from being attached to sth/ someone? why will the roots grow so deep in. and when u finally pull them out it hurts and leave holes in the ground?
and what's left is the reminder tt it once exists. that unfilled, emptiness tt leaves an ache in ur heart.
see... isnt it better to be free. to not be tied down. to not have feelings for sth/ someone? so tt it prevents u from feeling anything when it's gone.
it's kinda sad. i thought i've outgrew feeling like tt. but apparently not. nostalgia is fused into the air. everyone breathes it. lives it. want an example. look at ur sms inbox. so many ppl i know keeps some msgs from long ago still. i always wonder why ppl keep so many? of long ago encouraging words, advices, special moments? so what? so tt u hope it will last forever? will keeping it make any diff? what's impt is u urself know it. read it a few times, keep it in ur heart and delete it. no use pulling at the very threads of tt msg. of cos, this is only how i feel. many many ppl keep memorable smses in their inbox and go back to reminsce abt them once in a while. nothing wrong, but i think it isnt good to hold on to something too long. when it's gone, u won't be able to take it.
haha. it's like matchbox twenty's "disease"
"keep ur distance from me, pay no attention to me, i've got a disease"
hmmm. not much sense.
posted at [4:43 PM]
fi-ne
